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yours truly.
mich.
20 dec 1986
some normal girl.

wishing for.

psp slim red.
 new laptop.
 WII
creative zen 16GB.
 more overseas trips.
sony cybershot T200 red.
nintendo DS lite red.

the buds.

alvin foong.
chel.
dione.
fel.
gabby.
hidayat.
jasmin.
jojo.
joanne.
jolynn.
jo lye.
kooch.
lar-leng.
lisa.
meiqing.
mich ong.
pauline.
rachel.
qixiang.
sooeng.
sweehai.
syl.
weirdy zhiyong.
wenli.
xinyi.

pour out your woes.


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Tuesday, May 03, 2005

straighten out my thoughts finally. this time better be real. no more going back to the past.

its really time for me to forget this someone. few months back, i was chided for giving my all to him. but nobody could knock any sense into my god damn brain. when you are in love, no matter what others say to you. its all rubbish. you just cant get the point into your mind. but now i have no choice, cause all my waiting and whatever doesnt seems to have any effect on him. im practically wasting myself on him. and closing my eyes and heart to all other options.

BUT now, after thinking alot. i think i was really dumb. i gotta wake up from this dream. a dream that one day he may look back for me. but this dream will never come true from the way i see it now. it will never. everything that i see in his eyes is just the girl he likes. it was never me. all along i was his scandal. im not pitiful. and i dont need any pity.

i will forget him once and for all.

i cant be soft-hearted anymore.

i must not turn back to past anymore.

everything's over.

erase the memory.

God has been very good to me all along. sent me alot of good guys but i never seem to see it.
all humans are just so Fan Jian. they always like those who will not like them and close their eyes to those who love them whole-heartly. im one of those people.

its just too late.

-Signed Off @ 4:06 AM