Sunday, June 05, 2005
3 days is the best i can give him i guess..
advices flew from everywhere to just let go since he dont even bother. well.. i finally got the ans i have been waiting for ever since dont know how long ago...
WE AINT MEANT TO BE TOGETHER..
its the last straw. You were the one who said we could try it out. but your actions doesnt prove your words. You went MIA. making me worried but yet dont want to disturb You just in case You think im irritating You. i feel like an stupid idiot. Was i forcing You ? In ur mindset, perhaps i was.. You always think i am making You feel bad. Do You think i feel good ? i feel WORSE in case You din realise it. At least i tried, if You r still ignorant.. i think i should just tell You how much courage and hurt a girl must have in order to speak up to her feelings esp to a GUY who is so ignorant of wad others is feeling. at least it took 1 freaking Year of Pain and Tears before i could muster up my courage to tell You that i was waiting for You all this while.
and STOP giving me the excuse of not wanting to hurt me. i have enuff of Your excuses. Maybe because of You, im branded STUPID.. all because im like throwing myself at You. but at least, i WAS being true to my feelings. at least i TRIED, im not like You. You DONT even try. wad a major disappointment. oh wells. wadever.
You made me feel like a perfect fool. one who still lingers on to the lil bit of feeling You have been saying You have for me. to say the truth, i cant feel it. Not anymore.
was it that hard just to say NO? rather than saying you will TRY. but in the end, YOU DID NOT. and that makes me go freaking CRAZY.
Since You DONT even want to try. then i dont see a point in me waiting for You any longer. Your actions are making me HATE You. i dont want to hate You. But You forced me to.
im numbed. and its all because of You.
this time i didnt shed a tear for you. im calm. unexpectedly CALM.
One fine day You might just turn back in time to think about the girls who used to love You. But You will find that they regret loving a person like You. Because they wasted their time on someone who never cherish the love they gave You.
Perhaps that One day is the day when someone do all this to You. then You will realise this is wad i felt now.
