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yours truly.
mich.
20 dec 1986
some normal girl.

wishing for.

psp slim red.
 new laptop.
 WII
creative zen 16GB.
 more overseas trips.
sony cybershot T200 red.
nintendo DS lite red.

the buds.

alvin foong.
chel.
dione.
fel.
gabby.
hidayat.
jasmin.
jojo.
joanne.
jolynn.
jo lye.
kooch.
lar-leng.
lisa.
meiqing.
mich ong.
pauline.
rachel.
qixiang.
sooeng.
sweehai.
syl.
weirdy zhiyong.
wenli.
xinyi.

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Sunday, June 26, 2005

as i look at the past hi5 journals i posted when we were "supposedly" together, i got all kinds of mixed feelings. had so much kind of feelings.

i felt LOST! LONELY! SAD ! DEPRESSED ! TERRIBLE ! DOWN ! HEART-WRENCHING !

YET~

sometimes, i felt so blissfully in love(one sided love) whenever i recieved calls or msges from him. which is wad people who are in love (or think they were) feels. pretty dumb actually. this is where this saying is being used "One does stupid things for love" .

i guess this is wad people call LOVE. u experience all the ups and downs of emotions. one minute you can be at the highest peak on mountain in heaven and the very next minute, you might be thrown to the bottom pit of hell.

Looking at everything i used to write about how i felt for him, i see foolishness and untainted love.

i once told him : " i will be ur confidant listenin to what you have to say... be your chu qi tong when you are angry.. be there fer you when you need someone.. and all it takes to make your life better..." -which now i think, yeah ! i WAS hell stupid actually !

i had to change ! and im doing it now. or have i already done it ?

i used to be someone who dont think much of serious relationship. i dont believe in love at that point of my life. guys who came in at that time were the guys i let down. they were the ones who already knew how to love.

Till i met him, i changed. and i learnt to love in the most foolish and hard way.

"Funny how strangers becomes friends. Even funnier how friends becomes strangers!"
Hi There Stranger ! wanna be friends ? Ha !

-Signed Off @ 5:35 PM