Sunday, July 24, 2005
Skipped another day of work AGAIN~ im going to have a bad record man ! But im leaving soon anyway.. Went to watch Fantastic Four yesterday with the usual Clique. Nice ! But the waiting time from 11 plus to 1.55 is definitely NOT nice or fun ! Kinda fell asleep in the preview lounge. And the unlucky LK have to disturb me when im sleeping, so he got scolded by me. I hate it when people disturb my precious sleep.
Anyway. Its SUNDAY today ! But its a different day.. Because.....
Im never one who will show my affection for my family. I never know how to express myself. One day i will regret it definitely. My uncle pointed it out that i got to change in order to solve the problems between me and my dad. He ask me why i will want to go over his house and stay ? The answer was hidden SO deeply in my heart that i didnt even realise it. The house was never like a home full of warmth that i will anticipate happily at the thought of going home straight after work. I just didnt want to admit it. I haven been talking to my dad for very long. Cause i cant get myself to get over it and not to have any conflict with him. Its just so hard. But i know i got to change. I never stood in their shoes.. Never thought whether my parents will be happy to come home and face 3 kids who may not appreciate them or may not even be at home. The same old untidy house because nobody bothers to clean up. Never thought how tired my mum will be after working and still have to come home and cook for us. And also how my dad drives taxi from morning to night to keep the family going.. *Tears welled up when i thought of all this that i never once think in the past* Simple family problems that most people cant solve as well.. So i got to give them more attention.
My parents, sister and me went outside for dinner to celebrate my mum's birthday. I talked nicely whenever they ask me something. tried to joke a lil. Im trying my best. At least its the 1st step. Better than not trying..
Alright.. Enough of emotional issues~
A guy msged me in friendster with a POEM`
i was thinking. Wah~ still got poem some more ah ! So artistic ah ! BUT not interested. Cant be bothered to reply this kind of msges. Bo liao~ I know im a lil bad posting the poem here BUT at least i didnt post the WHOLE msg plus his PROFILE and embarrass him in front of all who reads my blog. Ha !
So the poem goes like this~
Tire & empty creep in the heart.
Yet beauty of thou shining tru.
Sadness of past lay in the dust.
With hope I have that snow fall.
Snow seem cold but warm in heart.
Future is blind but I prayed.
Seriously. I dont understand this poem lor. Blame it on me having no artistic brains or wadever. Pls lor. I dont believe in this kind of online meeting friends lor. Its stupid lor. Who knows how many girls you send that poem to.
I dont trust people easily. Much less strangers i dont even know. Maybe i dont even should trust people i call frens ?
