about the girl.

Friday, September 30, 2005

oh well. im freaking bored now. alone at Cine lan shop waiting for a bunch of idiots. -.-"

just finished wedding dinner @ Meritus Mandarin. it was ok except that some of my auntie and uncles got drunk. and the worst and most embarrasing thing that happened to me ever when i attend dinners like this is I FREAKING FELL DOWN ! and so many people was watching. WTH. luckily its only most of my relatives who saw it and some kaypo idiots. the groom and bride was stunned when i fell down right in front of them. haha.. some stupid chair cover got stuck with my heels when i was trying to move away.

THE WORST THING THAT HAPPENED TO ME ! how embarassing......

-Signed Off @ 11:52 PM

do you remember...

when you last cried so broken-heartedly ?

when you last laughed from the bottom of your heart ?

when you hated somebody to the core ?

when you love somebody with all your heart ?

all these small details in life that everybody neglects. nobody bothers with minor details like these questions. only weird people like me likes to think about all these. i have forgotten when i last cried or laugh. try as i might, i have forgotten. who understands what im talking here now ? I dont understand either. whats wrong.

lalalala~ tonight dinner's at Meritus Mandarin. wedding dinner. the food better be good. the service better be good. cause its a 5 star hotel aint it ?

Numbed. where's my heaven. where's my guardian angel.

-Signed Off @ 11:09 AM

Wednesday, September 28, 2005

I have to set my heart on it. To refrain from going out during weekdays except friday. To reach home LATEST by 11 plus if i really go out.

I just dont wanna lie anymore. dont wanna give any stupid excuses and stories just to cover up. i have enough all these craps.

So pls try not to ask me out during weekdays.

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Why is it people have to put up a strong front in order not to be bullied by others ?

Why is it people have to put up a mask in order not to spoil any friendships/relationship ?

Why is it some people lead such a carefree life yet some dont ?

Why do i have so many questions when i already know my own answers ?

CRAP ! One day the truth will find itself. Dont lie anymore.

-Signed Off @ 12:45 PM

Tuesday, September 27, 2005

Oh great. another weekend spent at home slacking and watching tv. just dont seem to have the mood to go out. last thursday was momo night and yes, to me it sucks big time. well.. wasnt that bad just for the reason that i got to see quite a lot of my pri & sec sch classmates. well. but im really going to seriously consider the next time im going clubbing. as i have said, this will be the last time and YES, i did not drink as i promised. and who's gonna believe i fell aslp nearing to the end of the party. ha ! ya ya. i dont wanna yack abt how unhappy i was. and again, i missed work the next day.

Orite ! went to watch Myth with KL and HW yesterday after work. Its great ! though i was laughin throughout the show because of some stupid computer effect that was so obvious. But overall, its quite nice. Esp the theme song "Endless Love". Superb ! On the way back, i was talking to KL, yacking non-stop ! How long has it been when there's only 2 of us talking and talking endlessly about everything under the sun. =)

Fullstop.

whats the point in saying anything when nobody listens. Im sick and tired of complaining.

-Signed Off @ 10:19 AM

Tuesday, September 20, 2005

im such a sadistic bitch. PERIOD.

-Signed Off @ 10:14 AM

Monday, September 19, 2005

Monday blues BACK again~

Over the weekend, i have been a very good girl. I spend the whole weekend at home. Can you believe it ! Haha.. But there's a reason to it.. Cause i went to Sab's 21st birthday chalet on friday.. and SO unfortunately, i fell down iz's bike. Well, its not that im not skilled or wad BUT it was raining and the ground was sort of slippery ok ! Haha.. The result is scratches here n there blue black on my leg.. *Sobx* No mood to go out liao. Cause i got to recover before i come work today. Or my dear uncle will be nagging me saying every weekend i go out, i sure got injury or sickness. I've to prove him wrong ! Ha !

Well.. I just come to realise some people like to keep saying that he/she really treasure friends or whatever. But in the end, they dont do what they say. Superficial hypocrites.

Im walking in the rain injured.....

-Signed Off @ 10:36 AM

Friday, September 16, 2005

Black & white Photolog of Shang D&D

Let's Start !!

From left : Yi Jun, Xinyi, Mei Yun, Me & Alicia

The Girls!!

Very Rare group photo =)

Dinner Time ! Yummy !!!

HA ! 3 Mad Girls + 1 drunkard !!

High !

Me and my darling Xinyi !

AWWW~!! Im hugging you to death !!!

Missy Kai Lee ! My precious piggy !!

MeiYun.. Another of the piggy !!

The biggest nonsensical idiotic moronic good friend of mine ! LOL!

My 2nd home owner > Mr Sng Ray Yee !!! Muahahaha

Jessica !

My Xiao Di ! and HEY ! Kooichi the Extra !!!

Alicia

Im lazy to blog after editing so much photos.. Ha ! I know this photo log came VERY late after the D&D. But hey, i got to find all the photos from all kind of sources k ! Dont ask me why all the photos are in black n white. Cause i like it ! Enjoy !!

-Signed Off @ 1:27 PM

Wednesday, September 14, 2005

lalalala~

im sneezing~

im having a sore throat~

But im not dead yet~ lalalala

AHh CHOOooooooooooooooo~

Heaven

-Signed Off @ 10:14 AM

Monday, September 12, 2005

Monday. A whole new week. A week no different from the last. Yesterday has become today's memory. Emotions from yesterday flow once again today. Whats new coming from me~

Seriously, i have quite enough of friends discarding gd fren or even best fren aside once they have bf or patch back with bf. Its pretty obvious who im referring to. But Yes, i have enough. Maybe im the unlucky one who's always single , thus giving the image of always being available for friends. This is the part i HATE. I get to experience being thrown aside MORE than anybody else ok ? I really dont know and really hate to say this but friends ? They do this to me more than strangers on the street i dont give a damn to. I already endured for so LONG till im going to burst anytime. Im NOT a spare tyre, dont come looking for me when you r not with ur bf. Maybe i shld get myself a bf and experience the "nice" feeling of throwing fren aside. Let me tell everybody here - The god damn feeling sucks ok ? Thats why im indulging myself with work and not meeting up with friends or even meeting friends im not "that" close with. Sometimes i find it even happier and worry-free when i meet up with my ex-colleagues in Starhub. Nothing to worry, no terms and conditions and say what you want. Nowadays, i really find it hard to say how i really feel in front of anybody includin my friends. Because whatever i say seems to hurt them when im already hurt inside. I can no longer be honest. How do you expect me to be honest ? Dont come telling me its ok, you can tell me. Cause its never ok. I dont have the kind of mood to say what i really think. Im really sad to see KL sad over friends issue. I know it hurts her alot to be good fren with ppl and helping them, listening to them whenever they got prob. But when their problems are solved, they just throw her aside, never really caring abt her. Let me make it clear, this is call MAKING use of friends and ABUSING friends' priviledge. And its SO hard to gain back that kind of trust and friendship once you do it once and over again. Really ! Its damn sickening ok.

People. Stop asking me why my nick's always so sad and why my entries are so sadistic and pessimistic. Let me answer one last time. Im NOT happy but neither am i VERY sad. Im just always in a lousy mood when i blog or should i say i blog when im not happy.

Last saturday i pop over to RY hse to use the comp cause as everyone knows by now, my bloody comp is down. Freaking stupid comp. Not long after, KN pop by too. We stayed a while be4 i head for movie @ Cine while KN went to her fren's chalet. Caught the movie "Red Eye" with devil & Regine. It wasnt that bad considering its not too short nor draggy. Just nice. After movie, we went to sit down @ Paragon to talk awhile. Headed home @ 3 plus. Im happy on that day.

Today's 12 Sept 05.

Happy 19th Birthday Meiyun~

Many things happened after we known each other. Our friendship tested again and again. Till now, we have survived. Hopefully it will last.. Anyway, its your birthday and enjoy celebrating with your family and sheldon. Though we wont be celebrating with you, we still hope you will have fun. Best wishes and take loads of care~ =)

Illusions shattered once again.. Pieces of illusions cut real deep into my heart leaving me no chance to live. Reality's killing me.

-Signed Off @ 3:00 PM

Saturday, September 10, 2005

Haven been updating my blog regularly. No time.. No comp.. Haiii..

Last weekend was my darling sister Jojo's 20th bday~ Finally stepped onto number 2 ! Ha ! Had my piece of fun and this is the first time i bake a cake. Sense of satisfaction overwhelmed me when the response was not bad and jojo appreciate it.. =) But from then on, i swear i will never drink till im drunk next time. When you are drunk, you will do things that you will regret when you are sober. Sick and tired of regretting such things. Nvm.. I cant think for nuts.

Fancy getting sick straight after the chalet. With the vomitting and going to toilet, so terrible.

Had so much things to say but just cant seem to get it off my mouth. Im sick of saying and nobody understands.. Dont try to. I dont wan to see hypocrites. I really feel like closing down this blog. Its just so superficially talks abt what i do each day but never really wat im thinking.

I really feel like closing my world to everyone. Im really tired.. Really tired of being the always available one..

-Signed Off @ 7:40 PM

Friday, September 02, 2005

Went home straight yesterday to catch Jue Dui Superstar.

In the End......

Wei Lian Win~!!

Im pretty neutral, not really into either of them. Well.. They sing really well to prove themselves on the stage. Im impressed by all of them. Its just like any other concert. Frankly speaking, i was quite touched when Wei Lian sings "Qi Shi Ni Bu Dong Wo De Xing" when he won. That was more touching. And i was laughing when i saw Lee Wei Song cry.. Heh Heh ! Abit bad ah.. Kelly's last song was also very nice. Well.. To me, all of the 24 Strong are all SuperStar. They defeated thousands of people to get into the 24 Strong. So They are already Super Stars. Marvellous performance last night at the Indoor Stadium. Derrick & Jun Yang combination is so good. They both have the kind of cute boy look. Ha ! Anyway, the media really know how to eat people's money huh.. Straight after Project Superstar then hold a concert for them. Very smart indeed, to hold the people's taste while the topic is still hot..

Troubled by every little thing~ Feel so irritable..

-Signed Off @ 10:00 AM