about the girl.

Monday, October 31, 2005

friday - Kevin's birthday.

went to Starhub to meet up with my ex-colleagues while waiting for the bunch of late kings and queens to come meet me at Fish & Co to celebrate kevin's bday. how tough to give him surprises when he keep guessing whats going on. oh wells. can only blame it on some people who's acting skills were freaking lousy. haha. making it so easy for him to guess. we planned to watch a movie after the dinner but couldnt agree on 1 movie. plus everybody was tired. the 4 couples were tired from a day of fun @ the zoo while i missed out the fun 'cause i was the poor one working. i was dead beat from a day of work and when i sat down one the seat of the mrt, i feel aslp. only to keep waking up when i keep slipping down the stupid slippery chair. and a stupid indian woman hav to step on my feet while i was Zzz-ing. wth lor~ my eyes immediately flew open when that idiot stepped on my feet.

@#$%@$%#$ !!!!

but all was fun and well...

as for my saturday and sunday, both were spent at home watching vcds as usual.

i love this week. 2 public holidays. OH YES !! freaking GOOD ! so its like im only working 3 days out of 7 days this week. HAHA... so happy !

i shall feature that someone's msn conversation with me here. its not good to provoke me again and again. and anyone who happens to know who this person is please keep quiet. i dont want him finding out what i did.

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he ALWAYS says the same things. CRAP !

people often say dont offend a lady. he should bear it in mind. so what if you put this kind of nick. i'll just help you show everyone. no need for the sweet whispering or whatever crap you still have in mind. im immune. so what if i can speak to you nicely. you just have no idea im just pretending. just like you have always put an act in front of me all times. you should be thankful i have not featured what other things you said. i dont care whether its you or whoever who type all this. but you always repeat yourself, dont you know.

and how i wish i can tell you to stop calling me in the middle of the night. even if its 11 plus at night. i dont have the time to entertain you. stop lookin for me when there's nobody else to talk to. or whatsoever. but i just cant do so. not because i still have any fucked-up feelings for you but because i dont want to make things ugly. i just dont pick up your calls at all.

i saw the calls. i just ignored.

Get lost ! mr wong.

-Signed Off @ 12:00 PM

Friday, October 28, 2005

2 yrs ago....

A girl of 17 went to work as a full-time sales girl at a rather prestigious clothing shop in the city area. everything was normal, just work and work. until one fine day, while she was having dinner alone in the storeroom. a guy of 19 came in. they immediately caught each other attention yet pretend nothing happened, continuing to do their things. the girl was not the pretty type but the guy was good-looking, nice and everything a girl would want. so the girl did not dream much. the girl was working at the woman side and the guy was working at the casual guy clothings side. so they were sort of seperated by a wall. the guy was working part time so he only comes in at night and one of their colleague was the guy's gd fren. he wanted to get the girl's no so he asked for his gd fren's help. and of cause his gd fren agreed. the girl did not believe at first, thinking she's trying to joke around till the girl saw the msg from the guy. so the girl gave her no and the gd fren told the guy that she knows abt the msg. yet the 2 of them pretended not to know anything.

whenever the girl needs to get stock for customer, she hav to pass a mirror door to the main shop to get. and whenever she pushed open the door, she will find the guy smiling at her and she will smile back. slowly the guy started msging her and calling her to talk when they reached home. but the girl was always very tired 'cause of the long journey back home from work. whenever they were at work, they didnt talk much 'cause they didnt want to draw attention to themselves. gradually, tongues started wagging saying that the girl likes the guy and the guy was not interested in the girl. the girl started to feel inferior but the guy comforted her saying that they just dont know they the guy likes the girl and is waiting for her to give him an ans. the guy was always willing to do things for the girl. and burnt 2 cds for the girl 'cause he knows that she likes it. after sometimes, they finally got together. the girl finally gave her answer. but happy times didnt last. the girl who's so used to being single started feeling uncomfortable. the guy was treating her too good and she was scared. and just 5 days after they got together, the girl asked for a breakup. she didnt know how to say it out. but eventually the guy found out and they broke up. but the guy still loved the girl whole-heartedly. but the girl told him that he was good to the extent of irritating. she know she totally broke the guy's heart when she said that . but she didnt want the guy to keep waiting.. before she resigned from the place, the guy wrote 3 letters to her. and she still keeps it till today. she takes out and read once in a while, it serves as a reminder that she once has a guy who treats her so good and loved her so much but she did not treasure and let go of the happiness.

few months after they broke up, the girl's birthday was approaching. he tried finding the girl's sister online and thru her sister, he bought a present that the girl liked. when the girl know abt it, she was very touched but at that moment, she was going to be together with another guy. right after the girl was attached, the guy was also attached. they continue leading different lives. never interfering each other's life. whenever the girl had problems, the guy will comfort her and gives her advice.

one day, the girl met someone she loved with her heart. but the someone was just playing with her. and for 1 yr .

the girl finally learnt that she should never have let the guy go. she destroyed her own happiness with her own hands. she tried asking the guy for a patch to forget abt what happened in the past and really wanted to settle down with the guy. but the guy wanted the girl to think carefully and in the end, the girl asked to forget abt everything 'cause she doesnt want to hurt the guy again. not long after, the guy was attached again. and their relationship seems to be going strong.

now the girl realised her mistake. she is regretting. she has decided to wait for the guy no matter what. even if he doesnt knows, she will still wait for him.

this entry serves as a reminder for the girl to do what her heart tells her to... and to prevent her from making any more mistakes......

-Signed Off @ 3:02 PM

Thursday, October 27, 2005

celebrated dummy stranger's birthday yest. went to crystal jade and everybody came out with a bloated stomach, unable to even walk properly. 'cause stupid RY keep ordering all sorts of dimsum. still imagining he's at china where everything is cheap and stomach's always empty for good food. haha.

after dinner. we watched Flight Plan. and its after much argument deciding whether to watch Election of Flight Plan. i think that Election should be some kind of dumb show which i'll probably hate. so its an absolutely no-no show for me. the majority wanted to watch Election 'cause the guys want to watch that. but too bad i insisted in watching Flight Plan which turned out to be pretty nice and exciting. didnt waste my money which is good.

finally an 1 hr of journey home by mrt then bus. jo, angie and me was havin a fantastic time talking about our sec sch lives. how exciting and worth remembering. we couldnt stop yacking throughout the whole journey.

i was dead beat when i reached home. energy totally drained.

next up is kevin's birthday either celebrating this fri or sat i guess. then 29th Oct is my dear bro lionel's bday.

that should be all for yesterday.

listening to Jay & Lara - Shan Hu Hai and Jay - Ye Qu. cant stop repeating. how nice~

-Signed Off @ 4:17 PM

Wednesday, October 26, 2005

26Oct05 - the star of the day is .................

Joanna Lye Mei Jin, my one and only stranger aka SM!

so.....

happy 18th birthday dumb stranger !!!

finally 18. finally of legal age to do alot of things. like what we always like to say. funny how strangers becomes friends and even funnier how friends become enemies. we belong to the first. or should i say we became friends from enemies.

best wishes from your one and only mastermind.together we are the SM. Stranger Mastermind !!

-Signed Off @ 11:22 AM

Monday, October 24, 2005

Orite !!!!

sat's the day. 4Beez class gathering. its damn fun. imagine talking about the past from 8 plus at night till 4 plus in the morning. its been like 2 yrs since we last met the rest of the class. so much to talk about. so little time to reminsce about all the funny little things we used to do.

everybody's nick.

how the whole class always got punished together 'cause of "One for All, All for One".

how the whole class sat on the stage when everybody else is sitting below. (we were punished for your info, not 'cause we are special) 'cause the whole class was late.

how i was always called mousey 'cause of my small lil eyes

how the whole class always laugh when sihui aka the goldfish "fish" (the head keeps nodding when she's slping) in class. and when she always da bao bee hoon in the morning.

shufen's response to everything is HUH? and everybody calls her childish. heh heh

how we always laugh at Mr Ang's words and actions. Eg. "Class ! I have mentioned this for how many hundreds of time !!!" and his always-scratching-his-crotch actions.

and yeah. everybody hav changed in one way or another. regardless of appearance or character. while some is still the same. as cute as ever. 4Beez always so united and always full of fun. we had our F4 cookin for us. and not forgetting our TUTOR - Sam. oh yes. i still cant really get over the shock that he's actually a tutor but for pri 1 students though. haha. he's probably the star of the day. i guess everybody's camera has his photos. everybody's dying to tk a photo with him. HAHA. and dont look down on me. i tried to cook. BUT. my satay's abit over-cooked. ABIT la. haha. but my prawns were delicious. going all down to my stomach. haha. after the bbq. quite alot of ppl left, while some of us stayed on to chat.

in all. i really love 4Beez. probably the best class in my life. =] they sure add spice to my life.

recently im obessed with the SIMS. and that idiot RY hav to come back at this time. leaving me game-less. how poor am i. sobs. haha.

-Signed Off @ 4:30 PM

Thursday, October 20, 2005

OH YES ! its thursday. just another day of work and hello! weekend im coming !

trying to take a break from work. feeling sleepy after a heavy lunch. angie came over to talk to my boss and my uncle. and we had lunch together. talked about loads of things. incl. experience from the past and etc.

hav a busy weekend to look forward to. tml's celebrating xian long's bday @ kbox. im still considering whether to go or not.

sat's class 4Beez gathering. its been real long since i last meet up with sec sch classmates. kinda miss them . but how i wish the whole gang inclusive of shufen, kimmy, yunxian and sihui will be going. it should be more fun if the whole class is going. thats HOPEFULLY. lets all look forward to SAT ok !

-Signed Off @ 4:01 PM

Wednesday, October 19, 2005

i think im such a failure.

'cause ms always-single jo the dumb stranger is also attached. attached to a dumbass. LOL ! aint i so good helping you to broadcast. let me know whether you want to broadcast his name or not too ! haha.

some couples are really weird. or is it i dont understand their "pleasure" of picking every small lil' thing and quarrel ? "Break-up", is this word so easy to use ? some couples just like to say this in a fit of anger and start to whine about how bad his gf or her bf has been. and not long after, you will see them together AGAIN. 'xcuse me. this may happen a few times or even many times. i just dont understand whats wrong. but anw im used to it. some of my friends are like this. let me remind those who are attached now to never treat your friends as spare tyres. only to find them when you hav broken up with your bf/gf or when they are not free. your friends CAN tell ok. and i just so happens to be one of them and i hate to be a spare tyre.

dont give the excuse of not able to let go or blah blah blah. crap !

couples. duhz !

-Signed Off @ 12:04 PM

Tuesday, October 18, 2005

*yawn*

a lazy tuesday afternoon. feeling sleepy and tired. flu bug seems to be marching their way to my body. antibodies seems to be failing. headache ah !

all this probably due to not enough sleep last night.

oh wells. must be due to the k-ing session yesterday. went to eat sushi first before heading to kbox with jo the dumb stranger and MY. had such a fun yet tiring time singing and playing around. and the best thing of all is.... the toilet had to be down just so coincidently. and so we hav to walk all the way out just to go to the stupid toilet. duhz.

in the middle of the session, i recieved a msg saying that one of my friend's grandpa passed away. i feel so........... just dont know what to say. haii.....

what a sleepy sleepy day~

-Signed Off @ 3:15 PM

Monday, October 17, 2005

there's tons of shows i wanna watch. but dont seem to have the time to.

let me see... (Not by ranking)

Shows that i think is totally crap and i'll nv watch it !

1. April Snow - some korean crap show
2. The Bow - i guess its pretty dumb
3. Everlasting Regret - i dont care whether Sammi Cheng's in it or not.
4.

I wanna catch these shows !

1.Deuce Bigalow: European Gigolo - comments that its not exactly that nice
2. Into the Blue - some friends says its cool
3.The 40 Year Old Virgin - seems to be a pretty funny show
4.The Skeleton Key - my type of show !
5.Transporter 2
6.Wait Till You're Older - Andy Lau's show. dont seems TOO bad
7.The Exorcism of Emily Rose - the trailer seems exciting enough, so the show better not be disappointing.
8.Sky High - aww~ how long do i have to wait.
9.Just Like Heaven - i saw the trailer and decides : I MUST WATCH THIS !!!
10.Harry Potter And The Goblet Of Fire - i'll nv miss a harry potter movie or book
11.King Kong

give me the time and money to watch movies !!! =]

-Signed Off @ 5:48 PM

oh wells. had a fun weekend. in the end, we still managed to celebrate our dear kailee's bday with her on saturday. did you enjoy it ? like the pressie ? hee. xin you ling xi yi dian tong ! thats why we bought the pressie. a simple celebration that we hope you dont mind. =] so sorry i went off first to meet my other friends. i heard you all were deciding whether to play mahjong or not. haha.

i went to meet the F4 (Fantastic 4 - thats what they call themselves now), my starhubber friends. went to eat at Suki Yaki or whatever its called. lousy food. and each of them were stuffing the food down to their stomach till everyone cant even walk properly. indigestion. as a result from eating too much of button mushrooms, i had a stomachache. =[ and when i heard KL they all's going off, i went to ktv with F4. had my piece of fun and reach home at abt 4 plus. talked to simon from 4 plus till 6 in the morning. i wonder how he's going to work @ 1230pm. must be real hard on him.

hmmm. seems like my sec sch friends starting to miss each other. 2 gatherings coming up soon.

22Oct05 - Class 4beez bbq @ Northvale Condo
03Nov05 - Saxo steamboat

how nice if everybody really turns up. but thats usually not the case. there's always 1 or 2 who just cant turn up. i should be able to make it for the class gathering but im wondering whether i'll be workin on 03Nov even though its a public holiday. hopefully not.

my mood's not bad today. but i feel sleepy.

-Signed Off @ 10:37 AM

Saturday, October 15, 2005

nowadays taxi fare's getting so freaking expensive man.

from my workplace to RY hse. costs me a full freakin 11 bucks. its like WTF. its inclusive of what peak hr and ERP and whatsoever. cheat money!

as usual. i can only be at my 2nd home in order to blog at this time.

just changed my blog skin. lazy to design and no inspiration to design my own. so just picked one from blogskins.com. pretty cool huh.

alright. im leaving. back to my home sweet home.

and to mr ray yee. dont say i nv wish you anything. hav a safe and fun trip to china. and buy loads of things back for me ! haha. remember !

-Signed Off @ 12:32 AM

Friday, October 14, 2005

birthdays~ seems like everybody's birthday are closing in.

firstly. happy birthday to sheldon since it's his bday today.

secondly.

an early birthday wish for my dear kailee since i wont be able to blog for the next few days.

HAPPY HAPPY 22ND BIRTHDAY KAILEE !

enjoy the day like no other days 'cause this day comes only once a year. its been nearly 3 yrs since we knew each other. thinking of how we started to know each other is so comical. i should thank chin JJ, without the arguments and bickerings with him, we would nv be frens. and nv progressed to such good buddies that can talk about anything under the sun. still rem the days when you me JJ and HW always go to far east shpg ctr to play pool. how dumb can we get. haha. so many wonderful memories we have shared in the past. despite the ridiculous arguments and quarrels we hav in the past, i still regard you as one of my closest friend. one i can always depend on always. =] i appreciate all the long talks we have and the times when you stayed over at my house. so much things to describe how much i am thankful to hav you as a friend. lets look forward to the future and create even more fun memories. =] love ya darling !

anw. happy birthday to dione who's birthday also fall on the same day as KL. =]

hmmm. "someone" hav been calling me the past few nights. calling at the weird timings like 3 plus in the morning or 12 plus at night. too bad im always in deep sleep and nv hear the phone. or its either i just ignored the ringing and sleep. i spoke to him twice on tuesday. but i dont understand why does he always have to do this. whenever i forget abt him, he hav to come intrude into my life. this time round, im not as weak as in the past. im not going to let him enter into my life anymore. enough of sufferings. no more mis-treating myself. i congrats him for finally getting his license. and he says why so late. i said i did not hav the chance or time to tell him. and he says i ignored him @ momo. i literally turned my head ard when i saw him. which is so true but i denied. haha. he always notice these small actions that i want him to know. YES. i want you to know that i ignore you and your calls so you can stop messing with my life. and stop thinking that im your spare tyre. always ready at your call.

i hate to think about the past. leave my life alone. stop being selfish. stop messing with my life.

-Signed Off @ 10:03 AM

Wednesday, October 12, 2005

first of all. today's 12 Oct 05. so i gotta do this first..

happy 19th birthday isaac !

anw. i already wished you at exact 12am last night. so im just bloggin here to help you announce to everybody its my buddy's birthday. and since you wont be seeing this 'cause you dont read my blog. then i shall say, i hav no idea what to buy for you. something unique like the zippo engraved with words you gave to me on my last birthday. i hate buying presents for guys. nv know what they want. -.-"

can anyone pls tell me why the heck everybody's birthday is mostly on Sep & Oct. make me damn broke lor.

kailee - 15Oct05 turning 22
dione - 15Oct05 also turning 22
iz - 12Oct05 turning 19
sheldon - 14Oct05 turning 19 too
xian long - 25Oct05 turning 18
jo the dumb stranger - 26Oct05 turning 18. finally of official age.
kevin - 28Oct05 turning 19 also
lionel kor - 29Oct05 turning 19

SEE ! scary month. im getting headache.

-Signed Off @ 12:03 PM

Tuesday, October 11, 2005

another normal tuesday different from no other.

got a treat from my dear banana yesterday when i went to hav lunch with her. owwww~ sushi don. *yummy* nicey nice food they hav over there. =] thanks girl !

late afternoon angie came over for an interview. now its up to her whether she wants it or not. another jo aka the stranger tagged along with melissa. met them after work to go to shang. to clear the stupid locker awaiting to be painted. i bet thats an excuse to re-shuffle all the lockers. even if its not true, i dont care. im prejudiced against Shang. sucky place. after they finally finished clearing, we head down to town by walking. -.-" how "nice" to walk on heels for that distance. finally managed to hav a nice talk with iz. or he'll be blaming me again for neglecting him.

headed home after that. watched some vcds and pop back to bed to sleep.

sudden wake up @ 5 plus in the morning. cant rem why so. maybe i had a nightmare ? saw 2 msges on my hp. from someone who's lonely and just so happens everyone's aslp so he comes looking for me ? you just make me hate you even more. real loser. replying you will make me a bigger loser. thus, i did not.

thats all for yesterday. nothing happening today. except im finally getting my specs ! back to nerdy days.

marquesa demona

-Signed Off @ 3:21 PM

Monday, October 10, 2005

alright.. finally one weekend after so long spent outside.

oh wells. went to swim on sat be4 meeting joanna the dumb stranger to go town to meet the rest. saw a really short while of KL & K + JJ & HF before they left. proceeded to buy our movie tix. just so happens the movie timing that suits us best is Red Shoes. i'll say its quite creepy. or should i use gross to describe it better. eeew~ wells. i had a nice time scaring XY.. lol~ i finally found a technique not to be scared during horror movies. but hey. i keep feeling unsafe about my feet really. who knows which psychopath will pop out of nowhere. haha. im thinking too much.

im getting the same old feeling back. the i-dont-want-to-go-out-with-only-a-guy feeling. i no longer feel free and easy. yes. its happening again. and this time to my best guy buddy . im trying to keep a distance 'cause im just so.....

why are weekends always so short. why cant they hav 10 days a week. 5 days to work and continued with 5 days to play and rest ? that will be fantastic. today's monday again. and im actually looking forward to the coming of weekend..

4 more pathetic days to go....

-Signed Off @ 11:22 AM

Saturday, October 08, 2005

Voila ~

YEAH !!!!

after so long... im going to SWIM !!!

im getting FAT !! tummy getting real BIG !

soo tadah~

im at my aunt's condo at Warren..

im going swimmingggggggggggggggg...

-Signed Off @ 4:20 PM

Friday, October 07, 2005

=[

im not happy.. not happy at all.. in fact im feeling super down. no mood to do anything.. dont even hav the mood to watch vcds... i went to sleep at 10 plus last night. even i cant believe. but i just feel so sucky for no reason.

tears keep welling up my eyes when im alone..

how i hate to be controlled..... set me free.....
i really cant take it anymore....

-Signed Off @ 11:04 AM

Thursday, October 06, 2005

HAOOOOOOOO FUNNNNNNNNNNNN AHHHHHHHH !!!!!

argh. i feel so @#$^%^*&*$

i have no idea why. i just dont feel right. i keep thinking of something.. something's bothering me but i got no idea wad. whenever im not doing anything or when im on the bus, i start to flow to a state of daze. even when im buying things, i cant even concentrate on ordering my things. grrr...

whats wrong man. even my sighs are getting longer and more frequent.

i read about an article about past lives.. about somebody who can lead you to your past lives.. i wonder how was my past lives like ?

maybe i need a him in my life now... just maybe.....

-Signed Off @ 11:38 AM

Wednesday, October 05, 2005

im getting more and more boring......

my used-to-be "exciting" life have evolved into a new beginning.

in the past

"Exciting" life = always going out.. always meeting friends.. going home late.. staying out..

Now

"Exciting" life = staying at home and sleep.. watching vcd or tv... meeting frens near my hse.

now my house seems like heaven to me.. and my bed feels like cloud in the skies.

but still, i still believe in relaxing once in a while. so movie this sat ! i wanna watch Red Shoes, Brother Grimm and the Andy Lau Kiddy show... hahaa.... not on the same day though.. that will be mad.
it seems from the way i talk... im getting older.... =]

-Signed Off @ 5:33 PM

i had the weirdest dream last night. i wonder why. i dreamt that i was riding a bike to a FUNERAL. got no idea who's funeral it is though or i just cant remember. i got lost and was trying to ask for directions. i was at a carpark(those HDB kind). i saw a man and tried to ask for directions, he said he was busy and brushed me aside. den i saw a lady and she was also going to the same funeral, so we decided to go together. on our way to find my bike, we saw the man with some other people surrounding a car. i think there was a policeman too. on top of the car is a man (Dead) and they were trying to get him off the car by dragging his limbs but his limbs were dangling ard. his eyes were wide open and looking at me.. Gross~

This dream totally makes no sense. this morning my left eye have been twitching non stop. funny how i wasnt scared in my dreams.

2 more days to weekend again~

-Signed Off @ 12:50 PM

Tuesday, October 04, 2005

i feel like leaving early today. just dont have to mood to work now.. bored... sick of the cold calling. had my lunch with my banana just now. though we din eat, cause we were plainly talking non stop throughout. haha.. we always have so much things to bitch about. lookin back into the past, everybody changed. for the good or bad, depends on individual. im more money conscious now that i have stepped into the working life.. yup. but not to the stingy stage yet. haha. why am i talking all this rubbish.. no idea..

i wanna go home nowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww..........

-Signed Off @ 4:23 PM

Monday, October 03, 2005

amazing and unbelievable that this is the 3rd weekend i have spent at home. as i hv said, i went for the wedding dinner and the stupid falling down incident. i went to meet my sis and her grp of frens for kbox session to cele xiao di's bday. well.. it was fun and definitely the 1st time i go to ktv with SO many ppl.the whole room was packed for your info. haha. stranger and me was hogging the mike most of the time. it was fun. but reaching the end, we were exhausted and drained. got to leave first be4 we die there. so we left at 5 plus, mind you its morning. haha. so as usual, the slping buddha in me came alive and took over my body for the whole day till abt 4 plus be4 my wonderful mama woke me up with her call to bring over her swimming suit to my aunt's hse. but once again, i cant fight the sleep monster and pop back to slp. ha ! when i finally woke up, i started hogging the tv be4 i finally head to bathe and head to my auntie's shop to make a pair of specs. my eye sight's getting bad. everything's starting to get blur often.my lazy eye's getting even lazier. got home at 9 plus and start my vcd marathon till ard 5 plus in the morning be4 i slp. woke up at 2 plus to watch tv and vcd again.

thats practically how i spend my weekends nowadays. watch vcd non stop . period.
pretty hard to imagine since i always go out on fridays and saturdays or even sundays in the past. well.. people do change dont they. they do... they really do...

im seeking somebody... somebody who have been coming into my dreams for the past nights. but i cant see the face nor recognise it... it seems like heaven in my dreams and you're my angel.

-Signed Off @ 10:54 AM