about the girl.

Thursday, March 30, 2006

wells. news confirmed. She's GONE...

and im BACK...

last day at O2. Sucks big time. was so pissed off that tears came down. i really wonder why the fuck all the fucking disputes likes to come to me. CCB. but nvm, i wont go back and let ppl butter me anymore.

-Signed Off @ 11:32 PM

alrights. time for some updates.

last thurs went back shang to work. unlucky me! periods like to come at the wrong time. didnt have a good time. RIGHT ANGIE !!! who have a good time watching the shows. wells. in the end, i skipped work. haha. 'cause the cramps was killin me and all the aching from the carrying of the oval trays.

so i spent the whole day at home watching dvds as usual. damn shiok.

saturday went back to shang work also. much much more relax on that day. sunday was spent at home watching dvds. finish watching It started with a Kiss. damn nice! i love cool guys.

monday was a boring day. whole day serving customers restlessly. exchange the off day with tue with sat. so i'll be working at O2 on saturday. so sad...

today was quite ok. hilman and wee huat's gf came by O2 today. went to smoke with them. then, JJ and fang came by as well. fang went for her friend's bday so JJ and IZ came to have dinner with us. we went to Victoria Bar after dinner to poke fun of Raph who's working there.

anyways, rumours has it that XT and YF have been kicked out of shang. but let's wait till the rumours have been confirmed.

now i'm talking to Mr Wong ZW. feel like slping now man.

-Signed Off @ 1:31 AM

Wednesday, March 22, 2006

comparing to yesterday, definitely today cant get anymore worse. so it least i managed to survive through today. didnt feel like going work today, but for the sake of $$$.. i decided to VENTURE INTO WAR. lol

nothing much today except a bitch scolded me LOUD and CLEAR in front of everybody. when i mean everybody, i mean all the customers standing around, the staffs and even the passerbys. i bet they must be thinking, this poor girl kenna scolded till so jia lat for whatever ridiculous reason it was. they might even be thinking that this girl is a dear, but they never know underneath the smile lies a bad girl with major attitude problem. the stupid customers will not know that im cursing and swearing at them in my heart, pointing middle finger underneath the table WHILE they were yakking and yakking abt their stupid phones. Cause i show them such a amiable SMILE, one thats real enough to fool them into thinking that ENOUGH is ENOUGH. want to complain so much then dont buy the phone lah. buy liao spoil also not our problem what, its not like our company PRODUCED the phone. STUPID ! might be even YOUR fault 'cause you all are too dumb to know how to use the phone.

well. there was a nice customer today though. enjoyed chatting with her. though its her 3rd time back at this dumb place trying to repair her phone, she's still nice and understanding enough to know WHO to point the problem at. of cause the producer of the DAMNED phone. we started talking about overseas trip and she told me Hanoi is a great place for shopping and eating. CHEAP !! even better than thailand. haha. next time got $$ then i shall go. See ! Out of 10 customers, there's probably only 1 or 2 nice ones. the rest are morons. Yesterday, ALL was morons. hahahaaaa..

alrights. tomorrow's plan is to go work at O2 frm 11am - 4pm. then go shang work at 530pm. no $$ to survive le ah. got to earn some fast cash. i hate being penniless.

-Signed Off @ 10:51 PM

Tuesday, March 21, 2006

well. firstly you can read the title and this is not going to be a nice entry. 'cause im going to complain and complain abt how much i hate this job.

nvm. start with the weekends. went to work at shang on sat. shang is always the same. VIP table of 20 pax. they were happy but no ang bao for me = they happy, i no happy. haha. went to catch Date Movie after work. alvin went home and drive XY down. was quite a hilarious but short one. couldnt stop laughing throughout the whole movie. its like a funny version of a combination of movies. just like scary movie. anyways, scary movie 4 is coming out in theatres soon.

this weekend isnt good. full of unhappiness. have to let go of some things. and this blog isnt that private, cant speak out my inner thoughts so i just feel like keepin everything to myself.

and thus, everytime when im unhappy and i dont feel like telling anyone anything. i end up sleeping late cause i cant sleep. and i end up skipping work. which happened yesterday.

now i shall proceed to the unluckiest day i have ever had. made me wonder whether today was friday the 13th. but fuck! it wasnt. if it was, i would have felt better thinking that tomorrow will be a sat. firstly, i woke up late for God knows what the fuck reason it was. i missed my 975 and ended up watching 960 passing by. DAMN IT ! i missed 2 buses. a bad start for this day. so natually i was late for work but nobody said anything. so who cares. then i was stuck with 4-6 bloody knn cbb $%#$&*$(*%( troublesome moronic idiotic customers for the WHOLE FUCKING day. what the hell lor. i bloody hell feel like strangling someone right at that very moment. went for only 1/2 hr dinner break 'cause i went for dinner 45 mins late while attending to a stupid ang moh customer. even the last customer of the day was MINE. another dispute. KNN lah. 1 is enough to kill my day. 4-6 is F U C K !!!!! by the time i finish with the last customer, it was already 930pm. nearing the bus stop, we watched 960 pass us by. DAMN IT !!!! missed the bloody bus AGAIN. when i board the 975 at bukit panjang, i got stopped at teck whye 'cause the train was passing by.

NOW TELL ME, is this a bad day ? you imagine the whole scenario.

-Signed Off @ 11:25 PM

Thursday, March 16, 2006

some customers are just idiots just like my sister who is nagging at me at this very moment for taking up space of her bed. oh well i was saying abt idiotic customers. kinda pissed off and i mean real pissed off till i was almost ready to kill that fellow. made so much exceptions for him and he's still not satisfied. these few days aint good. just dont have the kind of patience to deal with problematic customers. just feel like scolding them right in the face and ask them to fuck off. but nvm, its all in the dreams. and fuck, there's a bloody stupid CS training early morning 9am. waste my time and sleep.

$(#&*#(%^&*#$(^&*$

anyways, tml's the last day of working at O2 for this week. FINALLY. work @ shang on saturday and rest for a day on sunday. meeting XY tml after we finish work. =]

alrights. im tired. cant watch my desperate housewives 'cause i got to wake up early. =[

-Signed Off @ 11:21 PM

Monday, March 13, 2006

wells. skipped work again today. we talked till dawn yesterday. 5am in the morning. wells. we are both happy with the outcome. its the best we could have expected. we were laughing throughout the conversation, it was like both of us had made up after the talking. but the actual fact was that we were back to friends. just expected this time we will never patch up after we quarrel and it happened. things have changed again, have to get use to the old lifestyle without him taking care of me. couldnt really sleep after the talking, maybe because the breakup was like vodka, the after effect came pretty slow. so when i feel the effect coming, i cant help but feel a tinge of sadness.

We are back to friends and Its back to singlehood again.

-Signed Off @ 1:38 PM

great. my previous entry turns up empty so here i am for another one. doesnt really matter.

isaac called me just now. we had a long talk; a thrashing session. one that we haven had in a long time. the reason i hate having thrashing out sessions is because it tends to leads to a breakups. nothing new to me; this is just going to be the 3rd one thats all. we spoke our mind, our unhappiness and everything. maybe im still a failure 'cause he's still not feeling any love from me. wells, we had come to an understanding that relationship doesnt work out for the both of us. we have tested it twice. no regrets; no grudges or any unhappiness.

the 2nd call is coming in real soon. 1 that might determine our final outcome. we are better off as best buddies. no extra responsibility. no extra expectations. for the best of us.

-Signed Off @ 12:27 AM

Saturday, March 11, 2006

experience tiredness almost everyday. cant sleep at night and wake up early to find myself totally drained of all energy. everytime after entertaining a dispute customer, i will find myself get depleted of 10% of my energy. so if i handle more than 5 such customers, i will feel like dying and i feel so fustrated. Oh God.

nearly a week. saw him today at bugis. amanda came and collect her dad's phone and went to meet him. i was feeling so uncomfortable when i saw him and amanda together(he didnt see me though), and i didnt go up to him. he seems like a stranger to me at that moment, it seems that i dont know him. he's just as normal as he always has been, nothing seems to be bothering him. there he is chatting happily while i was there feeling so i-dont-know-how-to-describe. and whats even better is he didnt even noticed me, he was too busy talking. im just tired of everything. let me get this straight. im not trying to keep my pride or whatsoever. so stop judging me. im just fustrated that everytime i have to make the first move. its tiring you know. im human after all alrights. anyone who knows me well enough will know that im such a person who hates saying sorry or making the first move. i have given in alot and i know he has too. he changed i know. he made effort, yes i saw it. BUT why is it everytime when we have quarrels, he cant come and pamper me. im a girl ok. i need to be pampered as well. so enough is enough. this time im not giving in. im TIRED. so people STOP asking me to put down my pride or whatsoever OK. let time pass all it wants alright. im giving up.

now eric seems to be more concerned about me more than he does. at least i feel better after i see eric's msges. while i get so upset when i see isaac's msges. i just get so fustrated and the msges jus reminded me that we are still not in talking terms.

P.S. I DONT need any comments on this. i just need a space to blog out how i feel and i dont need any judgements. say im a bitch or whatever. i dont care ok.

A.F.T.E.R N.O.T.E - guess wad. i just check out his nick. "no thrashing out sessions, enough is enough... byed.

you will never know how much you can hurt me with ur words. it ALWAYS have a HUGE impact on me. you said BYED. FINE ok. whatever. then lets just give it up then. our relationship is just not up to test, i dont understand you. i DONT. maybe someone else does.

-Signed Off @ 2:34 AM

Friday, March 10, 2006

to have a sec sch friend that you dont really talk to starting to sms you again in 4 years ? its kinda VERY weird in fact and he just broke up with his gf. hmmm..

its friday. last day of work in a week. but not for me, sat's another day of work at shang.

the tired girl is going to bed. so chaoz.

-Signed Off @ 1:11 AM

Tuesday, March 07, 2006

'cause the bitch is working. totally ruin my mood. simply so what the hell lor. today was fine 'cause she's not working but aint much better 'cause the customer today is WEIRD. almost all my customers have problems, keep complaining and scolding. OH man. i wonder how long i can last.

everyday's work is the same. not much diff.

we're still not talking. dont have the time to sort things out. i have no idea what he's doing and im busy working. no time to meet up and i dont feel like settling quarrels over phone or sms anymore. it just makes things worse. im always thinking whether im the only one pondering about our relationship. but everytime after we talk things out, i realise that you actually cared BUT you never bothered to show it. so tell me, when are we ending this war that have lasted since last sat ? do i have to go ask first again ?

problems. hate it.

-Signed Off @ 11:37 PM

Sunday, March 05, 2006

why do couples always quarrel. its really damn irritating when i see it happen right in front of me and now its always happening to me every now and then. it seems there's no stop to it. every little thing can start the spark.

im not angry with you when i see those messages alright. its just that you just keep creating hope for her so how is she going to get over you. im just upset 'cause you dont see it my way and when you want to thrash things out, i didnt want to though ultimately we will talk things out eventually. its just because im just sad that she's not moving on with life. honestly speaking, zw still tells me stupid things like he wants me but at least i know he's talking rubbish and he never meant anything. im not saying you are doing this to her but you are giving her hope in one way or another. why cant you get the point and your mood have to take such a big turn. now we are not talking AGAIN. its just mere days since we last had our war. and you know what, i had a dream last night, in fact it was a bad one. even worse, i remember whats the dream about. its about you telling me that you cant take it anymore and you are going to break up with me on a certain date which i cant rem. look. tell me what to do. i really dont know. even telling you how i feel in a joking way seems to be a problem. its because i just dont want to strain things that i find isnt much of a BIG problem. well, we just dont get each other's point. whatever.

P.S. Dont ask anything.

-Signed Off @ 11:33 PM

Saturday, March 04, 2006

this is the worst day since i started working here. it totally sucks. did i mention that there's like 4 michelle there including me. oh god damn it. its damn irritating and i usually wont respond when they call "MICHELLE" since i think it wont be calling me anyway. the other 2 michelle are actually fine and quite nice. but there's 1 particular short fat 38 BITCH who's surname goes by LUO if im not wrong who is mailto:#%&$@%&$% KNN CCB PCB F**KING BITCH who should be condemned to hell. that mother fucker thinks she's so BIG just becos she worked 1 yr. OH PLSSSSSSSSSs. she's has 2 faces, maybe 3.

She likes to DEH guys so guys thinks she's steady.

She likes to talk behind people's back and act as if they are good friends on the surface. DAMN that bitch.

She likes to scold people for nothing , thinking she got the power to scold new people instead of teaching them.

She likes to say she's not trying to be hao lian when she says something BUT she's actually hao lian-ing.

She likes to go for long breaks and complains abt other people who go for long breaks BUT not as long as her.

She dont do much things and scold ppl for nothing. lazes around. disappear when there's a crowd. order people to do things. thats the way she is. when it comes to ENJOY/ KTV, she's the 1st to say YES.

and last of all, she really pissed me off today that im going to show her attitude from today onwards.

she bloody hell scolded me at the counter saying that i should be serving customers when there's a crowd and not key in datas. bloody bitch. and for doing this and that. unreasonable.

i can take scoldings from customers which is NO PROBLEM cause i understand its MY job. but getting scolding from her is a BIG NO NO. im not going to bear with it. so the next time she trys to act friendly with me, im just going to be cold.

Everyone over there is fine, EXCEPT THIS MICHELLE LUO ZI JING. SHORT FAT BITCH !! i hope you rot in hell and have remain single forever since nobody will take you. BITCH.

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feel much better after blogging this out. angie came to our service center and saw me with an extremely BLACK face (after getting scold by that bitch) serving customer. well. thats not the picture, when the customer asks me anything, i give them the sweetest smile i can put ok even when i feel like killing somebody at that moment. after work today, K came down and we went down to 302 to have our late dinner then went over to MERLION area to sit around. tried riding Coca Cola's bike but ended up dropping the bike. haha.

XY's going to KL tomorrow so have fun !! we'll miss you for the week. =]

dear's last paper today. feel so bad i actually forgot to sms his good luck. kinda remembered yet forgot to msg him. so he's with kooch, raph and LK at MOS now. dont want to stop him or say anything about him not telling me that he's going to club, cause i feel so bad. so happy to know he's not drinking but he's not enjoying himself over there.

pretty tired now so going to sleep now. my sister haven even got home yet. wonder where is she now.

-Signed Off @ 3:30 AM

Thursday, March 02, 2006

just have to endure for 1 more day and i'll have rest for the next 2 days. probably going back to shang on sat to work night. got to earn some fast cash to survive the month.

what sad news. im very sure lots of people will be asking again and again why i didnt go into office join full time. if mark's lying to me and its actually XT doing something behind my back, then he's just a puppet and working there will be meaningless with a boss that listens to a minor china bitch. doesnt matter. i have a job now and all i want to do now is to save for studies and for XY's wedding cum KL trip.

-Signed Off @ 10:55 PM

Wednesday, March 01, 2006

woah woah woah. 1st march. a new month and that means that i'll have to struggle to get through this month with the petty $$ im left with for a FULL month plus a few days. 'cause my pay check's most likely in Cheque form. which sucks sucks sucks. another usual day of work. get scoldings for nothing. time pass pretty fast working at the counter. 1 customer takes up 1/2 of an hr which means its good. kooichi came by to pick up his phone and he actually saw me get scolded by a bitch who just cant seem to stop scolding me. ridiculous but i treat it as a normal case since some of the customers are mad.

its going to hit 12 at the clock so i better get started at watching desperate housewives disc 6. or i'll never be able to finish it.

-Signed Off @ 11:34 PM