Saturday, March 11, 2006
experience tiredness almost everyday. cant sleep at night and wake up early to find myself totally drained of all energy. everytime after entertaining a dispute customer, i will find myself get depleted of 10% of my energy. so if i handle more than 5 such customers, i will feel like dying and i feel so fustrated. Oh God.
nearly a week. saw him today at bugis. amanda came and collect her dad's phone and went to meet him. i was feeling so uncomfortable when i saw him and amanda together(he didnt see me though), and i didnt go up to him. he seems like a stranger to me at that moment, it seems that i dont know him. he's just as normal as he always has been, nothing seems to be bothering him. there he is chatting happily while i was there feeling so i-dont-know-how-to-describe. and whats even better is he didnt even noticed me, he was too busy talking. im just tired of everything. let me get this straight. im not trying to keep my pride or whatsoever. so stop judging me. im just fustrated that everytime i have to make the first move. its tiring you know. im human after all alrights. anyone who knows me well enough will know that im such a person who hates saying sorry or making the first move. i have given in alot and i know he has too. he changed i know. he made effort, yes i saw it. BUT why is it everytime when we have quarrels, he cant come and pamper me. im a girl ok. i need to be pampered as well. so enough is enough. this time im not giving in. im TIRED. so people STOP asking me to put down my pride or whatsoever OK. let time pass all it wants alright. im giving up.
now eric seems to be more concerned about me more than he does. at least i feel better after i see eric's msges. while i get so upset when i see isaac's msges. i just get so fustrated and the msges jus reminded me that we are still not in talking terms.
P.S. I DONT need any comments on this. i just need a space to blog out how i feel and i dont need any judgements. say im a bitch or whatever. i dont care ok.
A.F.T.E.R N.O.T.E - guess wad. i just check out his nick. "no thrashing out sessions, enough is enough... byed.
you will never know how much you can hurt me with ur words. it ALWAYS have a HUGE impact on me. you said BYED. FINE ok. whatever. then lets just give it up then. our relationship is just not up to test, i dont understand you. i DONT. maybe someone else does.
