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yours truly.
mich.
20 dec 1986
some normal girl.

wishing for.

psp slim red.
 new laptop.
 WII
creative zen 16GB.
 more overseas trips.
sony cybershot T200 red.
nintendo DS lite red.

the buds.

alvin foong.
chel.
dione.
fel.
gabby.
hidayat.
jasmin.
jojo.
joanne.
jolynn.
jo lye.
kooch.
lar-leng.
lisa.
meiqing.
mich ong.
pauline.
rachel.
qixiang.
sooeng.
sweehai.
syl.
weirdy zhiyong.
wenli.
xinyi.

pour out your woes.


some other links.
my friendster.
multiply photos.
photobucket.
xia xue.

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Tuesday, February 12, 2008

Point Taken.

Nobody gets to have the best of both world.
when you start getting happier,
something else starts screwing up.

Freedom of choice?
don't think i'll ever get it.
or i never want to choose.
Why must i ?

Lies?
who likes to lie?
when it just leads to more & more lies.
i hate it,
but what can i do to satisfy everyone,
or myself.

I don't feel like me anymore.

I feel overpowered by everybody,
and anyone can come along & break me into pieces.

Tears.
Always get held back by pride.
Aways replaced by a smiling face,
without anyone noticing behind that smile,
someone is about to break down anytime.

Friends.
Forever a sensitive topic to start.
Spent the last 10 mins thinking of what to type here.
but nothing came out,
my mind was in a state of blank,
not knowing what to type.

Trust.
Don't think i'm getting it,
Maybe they don't think i deserve it.
I just want more trust,
Why is it SO hard?

Doubt.
Everyone's doubting me.
And i'm SO irritated.

Betrayal.
Thats what i fear the most......
Yet, its happening all over again.

Wrong.
Why do i feel that nothing i do is good enough ?
It just make things worse.

Love.
Yes, i'm contented like i should.

Just hate it when i'm not myself anymore,
not able to do whatever i like anymore,
without caring about other people.

Does the problem lies with me ?


I guess so...............................

-Signed Off @ 11:50 PM