about the girl.

Monday, May 05, 2008

it sucks BIG TIME when i am sick.

and when i am really damn sick.

gosh!

my eyes are in a state of blur,
i feel like vomitting now and then,
i can't even walk straight,
and i am still not recovering after so many days of rest & sleep.
i wasted my whole weekend on the bed.

and yes,
it was lucky i could hold it through the bus journey of 45 mins,
and rushed to the nearest toilet
and gave up whatever was in my stomach,
which wasn't much except for some coke & totally no food.
totally have no appetite to eat anything,
nothing appeals.
damn! how should i describe this bloody feeling of being so damn sick.

yeah! i want to DIE!
thats the word..

nobody seems to care,
when all they see from the outside is a girl strong enough to be on her own,
even when she's at her weakest point and will never want to show it.
yet,
those who always seems to be weak on the outside,
gets more care and concern.
Welcome to reality.
where everybody looks only at the outside.

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i guess when one's sick,
one tends to get emotional easily.
yet,
i don't seem to know you anymore.
i don't feel your concern anymore,
you don't seem to be there anymore.

-Signed Off @ 9:09 PM