Monday, June 02, 2008
30 May 2008 marks the end.
i hope everything could work out in the end so i avoided seeing people that knew the both of us.
only till yesterday, we managed to talk after days of avoiding.
yes. i do remember that day we got back together was the sweetest day of our relationship.
you showed me how to trust again,
you showed me how someone can love me so wholeheartedly,
you showed me it was okay to fall in love,
you showed me it was okay to depend on you,
you showed me what tolerance was about
you showed me my future will definitely have you,
you showed and gave me everything,
but i failed to show and love you with what i can.
i failed miserably and i shouldn't blame you for letting go and i never did.
love makes one's blind and dumb,
that i did things which i never did in the past.
numbing myself with alchohol just to make sure i could sleep without thinking anymore.
the tears have kinda dried up and i just have to force myself to stop thinking.
a phuket trip meant to make things right,
1 that you never wanted to go,
it was all along a 1-sided thing that i wanted to rekindle some things,
because you already let go long ago.
I just wants to say i am sorry.
Sorry that i failed once again.
I'll let you go and take care of myself.
1 day we might get back together,
and maybe we will never.
regrets is a tad too late
and people always have to lose it before they start cherishing it,
some get another chance,
but mine's long gone.
it's just friends for now i guess.
i hope that one day you will find the right one.
my heart broke and i finally understand how you felt in the past.
I'm sorry for everything i've done and not done.
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thanks shin & dre for being there accompanying me for the past 2 days without sleep.
thanks to my dearest dumb sis who never fails to be with me even till 4 plus in the morning to talk.
thanks biggy ears for trying so hard to keep calling & smsing me.
thanks lye for staying with me at the loading bay that day.
thanks my banana for calling to check on me.
thanks to all the other friends i know that is really concerned.
I know most of you will wonder why i never look for you all, those that knew the both of us
it's just that i never wanted to admit that we are finished,
and i know you all will be worried and i never wanted it to be this way.
most importantly, i know i will break down once again just to say it out once more.
it's friends and family once again.
