about the girl.

Sunday, June 15, 2008

i really don't know what else i can do.
i maximise my time out just to stop thinking even to the point of sleeping as little as possible even when i'm sick.
i work like mad for 16.5 hrs today when i'm coughing like mad
with everybody asking me to go home & rest,
but all i want is just to work my way through, keep myself busy & STOP THINKING.

everybody's wondering why i went back to bqt to work part time,
it is just to earn some cash 'cause i'm really broke after the phuket trip.
in additional, i want myself to be able to keep my calm even when seeing him,
i thought i managed it well today,
but thinking back again,
i failed again when i msged him...
though i hate to admit it but i still miss him.
i know it's what i've to go through but it's still hard to take it.

alvin ask me to think 'bout it,
even though i've been thinking 'bout it ever since the breakup.
but no matter how much i think,
it's just not gonna work out because it takes 2 hands to clap
and mine alone isn't helping.

i guess i've to set a time limit,
by end of the month if nothing else changes,
and he still wants to be left alone.
then i shall give up.
it will really marks the end & i'll just take it slow and be friends back.
but it will only be friends and nothing more from then on.

exactly half a month more.

-Signed Off @ 3:50 AM