about the girl.

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

many things have changed,
time do change people,
i can't agree more.

but do i really like the "me" i'm changing to now?
i wonder.

i don't have a life now,
just working my ass off every single day.
i haven't watch a single movie in weeks,
and all the shows i wanna watch are all coming off the screen.

speak up how i really feel?
i am feeling so TIRED and DRAINED from all this waiting,
and the endless tears whenever something just have to happen at the wrong time.

i see the photos on her friendster, i'm unhappy.
i see her taking over everything i used to have, i'm unhappy.
i see her coming down even when she's not working, i'm unhappy.
i see her things, i'm unhappy.
when i have to work with her and yet have to be impartial, i'm unhappy.
when i have to cry alone under a block, i'm unhappy.
when i'm sick and you're not there to spare a word of comfort, i'm unhappy.
when i know you brought her to the wedding, i'm unhappy.
when i can't feel the same concern & love i used to felt, i'm unhappy.
there's so many things i'm unhappy about and this is the only place i get to shout,
yet whatever written here gets out fast enough to the point i feel i don't have any privacy left.
and i hate the fact that i've to pretend to be magnamious and act like nothing happens whenever i hear her name,
when i'm actually feeling like shit.
fark.

fine, i'm a bitch and a vixen for throwing myself at him lar.
i can't be bothered by what people will think anymore,
i'm fed up plus sick and tired.

i really really need to find myself back before it's too late.

-Signed Off @ 11:58 PM